"Sickness of spirit + sickness of mind = sickness of body"

Woke up in a feverish state yesterday, but I suppose I was due. After a tragic week at work, everything caught up with me. Had to take today off. Say "had to", should be "got to". Picked up a paper today hoping for a bright light to hit one of the classifieds just right, and I would know... "that's what I've been meaning to do all the while, how silly of me to think anything else would be right." But, of course, that's what I thought janitoral work would be, though not as anything except as a mean (that I'd find the type of enjoyment in, that only mindless labor can give) to an "end" (school). It seemed to be the complete opposite from my other jobs, which were in food service. I wanted to get away from people, customers. Ironically, it's b/c I'm lacking in interaction that I'm suffering. Ah look at me whimper and moan. "A little pain never hurt anyone."

Have seen two good movies in the past two nights (or 18 hours). Saw "moulon rouge" last night/this morning at 3 am. Didn't know what to expect really, which is often the best way to watch a film. Honestly I didn't even know it was so musical. A lot of fun. Well acted. Good story.
Just saw "lock, stock and two smoking barrrels" tonight. Also full of fun and subtle humor. Thinking it's probably a bit better than his (guy ritchie's) more recent film, "snatch", or maybe it juat had a tad more to it.
Ah, well. Both are recommended.
In other entertainment news, musical interests tend to ebb and flow daily, as my small mind has trouble keeping everything together. New purchases include: engine down, denali, mogwai, two rainer maria 7" that rock (just got them in the mail today, so am a little bias), bjork (!!)... as far as illegal activities I've downloaded most of the dreamy, romantic and charmingly french, amelie soundtrack (which is a fantasric film! There isn't any need for me to say anything about it except go yourself, you won't reget it).

So what?!

I hope I bug you less than me.

"(I write to find) the proof for myself, of Mark Doty's observation about the shaping forces of one's life 'becoming the lens through which you see as opposed to the thing at which you are looking.'" - Amy Hempel