"belgian congo"

$#^%QT! i think i said i'd post on here tonight... i've been getting pretty lazy/self-involved. been a bit of an ogre about e-mailing people... okay, not even a bit. a lot. i'm not even able to apologize b/c if i really was sorry i would have written by now, right?

"oh, i ought to club them and eat their bones"

i probably can't lament enough (though) the amount of thoughts that slip by me each day. work has been a constant treasure hunt of the subconscious for burried memories... not all bad either... odd childhood imaginations, feelings, and impressions. weren't we wonderful. so simple. we could play with a bowl of flour for a good half an hour. tastes associated with certain memories....

in recent news i finished the fourth harry potter book yesterday morning. fantastic! ...unbelievable! as it's been said, each one gets better and better (as in more entertaining and self-involving). (you don't believe me. it's your loss) finished it in a week and a day or less. Couldn't go to sleep friday night, and ended up tragically finding the last page at eight o'clock saturday morning. again, unbelievable. those books get so into my head! had at least three nights of dreams that had something to do with magic or flying broomsticks or something. got my fix.

"tonight" was fairly social for me, but it was fairly accidental as well. was thinking about seeing the royal tenenbaums at the $3 theatre in bellevue but held for now, might just have to wait until it comes out on video... ha! anyway, it was nice to be around people that weren't steve or just to be without the chance of him coming around (stab, stab, stab). that situation has settled a little bit, but i still dislike him as a person.

"tomorrow" i have mixed plans... want to be as relaxed and contemplative as possible, but i can never get anything done during the week. okay, maybe i'll actually get out of bed at noon and write someone an e-mail and make up the shopping list for giant eagle and go to the store, get those things and bring them back (all in one day) all before work that day. that "sucess" will sugest to me that i don't need to worry about another thing all week, i've worked hard enough. sigh, anyway the day ("tomorrow") should culminate by the early evening when i hope to go down to pittsburgh and immerse myself into a nice little foreign, object animation film from the Czech republic. in all probability i will be filled with a strong sense of meaning, purpose and peace.. and you will be unable to reach me, if just for the ride home.

eureka