things get worse before they get better

well, i don't really know what to say about this past week. monday i tried to get work done for school, but found simple distractions too much to overcome.

tuesdays' class was also a bit of a let down. We've really not had a whole lot of time to discuss things in class. i'm not sure that we would have even if we did (have time), though. it is community college. The movie we watched was Amadeus, which won a lot of awards in 1984 (i think). It was good. I never would have watched it on my own, just because of the time period and subject matter. It was a close, fictious look at the life mozart, through the life of another composer at the time. Of course i found something to relate to in it all and just felt miserable afterwards. but it did hold my attention.

Wednesday i tried to get things done, but was met without much sucess. my apartment is still an orderly train wreck, and there are places i just ignore completely, won't even look at. ironically there are a lot of cobwebs and dust bunnies that seemed to have popped up a lot easier than other places i've lived. oh, the ironic part being that without the supplies i have at work i'm really quite powerless to clean. Dishes and laundry too, just keep getting pushed back to the next day. heh, so has eating, if you think about it.

Thursday, not knowing that disaster had struck, i headed down to the southern pittsburgh suburbs for a promising art house flick at a quasi-art house theatre, which was being run by moody teenagers who obviously felt that common courtesy wasn't worth the $5.50/hr or so they were getting paid, and a manager who was cleaning her nails when i came in and filing them when i left.
in a different tone: have you ever watched a movie in the theater alone? I still don't know what i think of it. It wasn't bad, it was decidedly nice, but other than that i couldn't tell you. also, it was one the first times in a very long while that i came out of a movie and it was still light out. summer's good like that.

work as an interlude: you should know that work is a bit more messier since the switch to daylight. I like having my own work and my own time to get it done. i don't really feel like going into the details, but it seems like, with this big switch in work and home, that i've traded one set of stressful problems for another.

anyway, the weekend, for the most part, has been ridiculous. bittersweet highlights have been the denali show friday, brad loaning me a great and life saving amount of money, and finally watching the vigin suicides last night. there is little else i wish to salvage at the moment.

and yet it still remains. this incessant refrain: "you're just like the rest. your restlessness makes you lazy."