time code

here i am. at the library b/c i don't have a phone line set up in my new apartment yet. i haven't checked my e-mail in days. sadly, it was found to be an unnecessary gesture. really it's hard not to be dissapointed. despite the fact that's no surprise. this is how i've become. just terribly self-absorbed. and it's even harder not to go, depressingly, on and on about how i depise this person that has seemed to have taken over bit by bit (and still going) without being consciously aware. or at least, not all the time.

but today, this weekend, this move, marks a new chapter. i've got class to tonight. and though i don't have enough money for the book, there will be a social challenge, of sorts. it's exciting now, but in a short while i'll be numb again. but perhaps, you the reader will get luckily and it will be a blissful engagement. for now, i'm just too overwhelmed with shit.

you're a disgrace to the concept of family