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okay, i'm back. in PA. at home. and it is a mess@! but i don't care. for the moment i'm quite content. sitting on a pile of laundry, the keyboard in my lap, listening to Radiohead's Kid A from the second track on. simply wonderful. i'll be thinking of bills another day. well, i'll probably have to think about them later today, but not now.

it's really nice and quiet here on sunday mornings. it's beautiful. i want to take back everything bad i said about this place. true, i haven't exactly been saying a lot more than i need to get out of here, but i think i resent it for having any sort of hold on me at all. Really, i think i really need to keep moving. i'm not sure where i trully want to be, but i don't think this is it. which leaves me with a good many options. which i don't feel like thinking about now.

well, my appartment needs cleaning, badly. if i don't start now, i never will (get finished).

the only way we can look at life clearly is backwards. too bad we have to live it forwards