escape (afraid of no one)

sadly a trip to the city was exactly what i didn't need. or something. i'm really second-guessing myself, but my previous post was right before the world dropped out from underneath me. i hope that's not giving it too much credit, but i already weakened physically and mentally, everything seemed so much bigger. now everything seems so dream-like. i can't quite figure it out, and i'm almost unmotivated to do so. i can't find the right distance to be. the right amount of debrief time. opposed to over thinking. opposed to not thinking at all. just distracting myself long enough until i can get it all repressed.

"Oh! Everything looks bad when you remember it!"