"shut 'er down boys! the dream is over."

So my computer died yesterday. just shut off out of nowhere, and now won't so much as power up. It's slightly heartbreaking. I've that thing for almost four years! But I don't really have the means to fix it right now, so i'm just going to wait until the next time i visit my parents to hand it off to my dad to see if he can work his magic. For now i'll write from various locations. which is fine, i meant to get rid of the internet next month anyway. i guess i am worried about all my mp3's and e-mail's that i have saved up, but these things happen, don't they?

other news:
-- one more week of school! though i was sick all last week and managed to miss every class for the entire week. yuck! So this shall prove to be an interesting finale.
-- the way things look i'll probably take another year or so off, and hopefully live in pittsburgh starting in the fall (just in time for american football season!).
-- adam voith's book is fantastic! you should really order yourself a copy.

now time to do some catching up on being responsible!

we were falling out of love

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oi! here's some happiness! I saw damien jurado, adam voith, and dave fischoff the other weekend in pittsburgh! It's was a good time. adam voith runs tni books and was reading some stuff in conjuction with his latest book, which i picked up and will have to keep you happily posted on how much it rocks.

'houston, we have lost the intiative!' (plus more on why i can't spell)

oh damn. this trip home was supposed to be a haven from insanity, but i'm beginning to think that only becoming a monk can offer the kind of solace i need. maddness. still working on failing out of english... I need to find somewhere to clear my head. plus i haven't really eaten in the past couple days which doesn't help much of anything. whine, whine, whine! ugh! i guess i just feel bad enough to complain in this blog but not bad enough to complain to any one person.

my parents got this huge (!) flatscreen tv (now that they don't have to feed two well-muscled boys anymore) and it really just hurts to even try to watch the thing. richmond just seems befouled to me. I can't operate in this town! hmm, i guess the only thing left is to go record shopping, maybe find some quiet place to disapear into. Sorry, this sucks... perhaps i should be more confident in myself... "yeah, i suck! Thanks for reading!"

i really think april is the worst month. the past two have really rubbed me the wrong way. this summer i may be going back to camp. I've reasoned it out that it may be good to be a part of an actual community for a couple months. It'd be a nice change. Thanks for the help with veggetarianism. It's the way to go.

who's going the right way down a wrong way street?

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i forgot to mention the other day that i'm working on becoming vegetarian. This is somewhat of a challenge because i'm really bad with eating in general. I'm pretty clueless, and careless, when it comes to taking care of my body. Plus, i'm working longer hours at the Sheetz and it's all on my feet. So any advice, as far as creative meals? I would really appreciate any help.

This weekend has been good, but i'm feeling a bit frantic as i have a couple tests tomorrow, my summer plans aren't coming together, and i still haven't filed my taxes! More importantly i seem to be heading into uncharted waters socially. At times i really just want to run back to my silly apartment and hide in some other world of a book or video game. I really don't get me sometimes, and that's really quite scary.

we're just a living people
we won't have a thing
so we've got nothing to lose

thrashing about in my tired soul

well, it's april. Today has been moving really slowly. I'm exhausted, and i really could have skipped my first class to sleep because the teacher turned out to be sick. today jason is coming down from NYC. Should be good as always. Need to clean my apartment though. Still got hair balls in the corners from when i used have long hair and shed everywhere. Plus all the dirty dishes (still). That never seems to improve.

oh, i did end up missing Godspeed on monday. It got sold out! I completely misjudged pittsburgh. Just hoping the same doesn't happen to damien jurado next week. I did end up running into rudi feiler though, so i felt good about making the trip down.

I've skipped crime lit. everyday this week, and i'm not going to let today be any different. I really wish it wasn't so, but i really despise the teacher in that class.

i'm trying to step outside myself, but it seems like something made of dreams. To quote sarah: "none of us are REALLY anything to ourselves."

onto a test in Social Problems (yay!), and then home for napping and clean up!

you look like love