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while i'm busy moving, and being self-absorbed, you should visit julia's newly updated site (strange, i hadn't checked it in a while, but it appears she just updated it today!).

cartoon fun @ 4am: homestar runner.

breaking news

It's official:
I am moving on saturday and i don't have to fight over the vcr being mine! um...

Also:
Want to help people read? Take part in the release of the new issue of LITTLE ENGINES from TNI Books. Details can be found here:
http://adamvoith.com/020527_32.html

Explaination:
LITTLE ENGINES are great 'little' collections of literiture, drawings and other arty/cool works, and are published twice a year by tni books. I am currently enjoying the 2nd issue.

breaking the waves

eh, well... all week i've had thoughts that i wanted to write out, but they all happened at work or in the car. Mostly these thoughts would take place in vague, perhaps metaphoric, headlines. Sadly, none of any interest come to mind. So recently i just use movie titles and song lyrics. But i guess that point that i started out making is that i could never get it out when i sat down here at my computer. And i've been blaming it on setting and bedtimes, but really i believe that it's mostly due to an odd and ironic combination of a great deal of selfishness and a terrible amount of self-loathing. Throw in a bit of depression and irregular food consumption, and you've got me cursing at the cats, the tv, and socital holiday weekend norms. Though i suppose the later is not a shock, but the point is i've been terrible for the most part. And there's deeper issues that i won't go into, because we don't want to be depressed, now do we?

Well, in a week i should have another update, and then perhaps work toward posting more often. I've not had any confirmation on this place i'm supposed to move into this saturday, but i don't know what other option i have. sherri (steve's fiance' who will be moving over here, when i move over there) says there shouldn't be a problem, and said i could start moving things over whenever. it just seems like it's nothing too professional so i'll just have to take her word for it. Most of my life will be on hold until this is taken care of, but once there i anticipate a greater comfortability in writing once again.

What's wrong with second best?

stand by me

oh my. it's getting a bit scary here, as a lot is about to happen in not a large space of time. there's a lot of room for error, though. i am, in general, easily overwhelmed, so perhaps, if i went about explaining things, then it wouldn't seem bad to you, but the polls will not ease any fears.

the date's been set: I'm to be out of here by june 1st. that's less than two weeks. hear's the catch: the place that i'm counting on moving into, still hasn't been confirmed. It's a word-of-mouth sort of deal so i've been dealing with a middle-(wo)man the whole time, the save being that she is the current resident of this fair apartment, just three blocks away. Packing and moving shouldn't be hard, but it's terrifying not knowing when it's really all going to go down. It's a tedious tale.

Next, my boss, not seeming to believe that i'll be able to get up and get to work by 7:30am, has been threatening to have me work nights, minus the nights i have class. This is also terrifying. I went for night classes just so i could work daylight. My boss is so, so wishy-washy! He says one thing one day like it's fact, someone will challenge him on it and the next day it's completely turned around! Well, i have yet to go ballistic, but it's just around the corner. I haven't told him that i'm leaving after the summer's over, and that the only reason i'm sticking around is because i'll be able to work daylight over the summer... less than three weeks away@! He takes it all very personal if i even only leave a bit earlier than everyone else does, around 12am, let alone quiting. p.s. the pharse "threatening to have", used above, is probably better understood as "mumbled about having". he's so passive and barely agressive.

everything was closed at coney island and i could not help from smiling

well, i added a link to another site i like to visit, if i find time. it's a lot of fun (and british). she also has some nice photos of various places.

i promised kyle a while back that i'd plug his site, but i've been waiting for him to post something that he had mentioned to me on the phone that time. For the most part he's not impulsive and thinks out his posts. Ha! the gauntlet has been set.

Here's to you Kiefer Sutherland

well, i'm tired and fairly grumpy... it was a long, long day. hopefully, it will be a long, long weekend. With three day weekends there's always the urge to just leave. go off to anywhere. as much as i'd like to, i really just need to clean up and clean out.oh, and i'll be getting out plenty enough just not seven hours away or anything. has great possibilities, but so does everyday. i just don't see it. Speaking of which, i think i'm going blind. porbably explains the headache i've had on and off today. Anyway, tonight is an anti-responsibility night. meaning: tomorrow i hope to write something more meaningful. hopefully not just here, if here at all.

it had to happen, sooner or later, ...sooner than later

is it unfair that i expect you to pick up that i changed the time zone option to better fit my wake/sleep cycle? is it unfair for me to assume you care? i'm slowing getting up earlier and earlier in preparation for daylight hours. but for now this will do nicely. I felt the urge to explain because i am a bit too vague too often so i thought i'd give a little. who knows, you may have no idea what i'm talking about even now.

Alaska

briefly before i either pass out, go to sleep or watch the latest episode of The Gilmore Girls. Ha! sorry, just kidding... or am i? Anyway, i'm exhausted. it wasn't a bad day, just really fast. probably the same tomorrow. should just get some sleep. i didn't do so well on the postal exam. it was a trippy experience. some many extremely different people came out of nowhere for this thing, in the middle of nowhere in a bingo hall.

remember the smile, remember the nod.

i miss the innocence i've known

i should mention, i don't remember if i have already or not, that steve is getting married in a month. i'm invited, which we'll get to at a later date, but what this really means is that i'm moving out. But already i've got a nice place pretty much set up, but it really seems too good to come true. no more roommate worries! the rent does jump up $70 from what i'm paying now, but it's great situation. month-to-month lease, pre-furnished, bedroom, living room, kitchen, bathroom. And best of all, the tenents below are supposed to sleep like babies!! More when it becomes clearer.

A bunch of responsibility stuff this week. tomorrow 'morning' i've got the post office test, which i'm only barely prepared for because i never thought it was going to happen. Need to get another list written out. Friday i have to get all my bills paid, including classes ($486!), perhaps textbooks too, but let's take it one step at a time. We do get friday off so that'll be fantastic. Trying to debate going to cleveland on saturday for john vanderslice, but as i write this i'm leaning towards the no. Perhaps a film. Though i'll try to resist i'll probably end up seeing star wars ii and/or about a boy before the month is through.

what was i thinking when we said hello

A different feeling

my thoughts and emotions about the future are very rapid to change.

yesterday was very odd and i ended up not going to pittsburgh. i was tired and feeling sick after a 'morning' of television and cereal, and then an afternoon of present shopping in ohio. so i decided to relax at home and perhaps read some. but i didn't. i just watched more tv... there always the hope that you'll find something good.

oh, i forgot! Happy Birthday michelle@!

"sunrise, sunset"

had a bunch of dark thoughts earlier tonight that were weighing heavily (as dark thoughts do) on my mind, but when i got home there were two things that caused a dispersal. One) steve's nowhere to be found... again! I have the house to myself. Freedom! no creaking around tonight. Two) the promise ring. Say what you want (i won't hear you), but you just can't be depressed and listen to this band. Been pretty much dead the last month for various reasons. i mean, i'm always bad with e-mail but recently it's just been ridiculous.

escape!