updated the links a bit. added the links to mogwai and unwed salior sites. there's also a link that i forgot to mention a while back titled "A rest home for pirates" (where did you come up with that one?!). it's "group" "blog" that my brother, friend and i post to. though i've only done so once. it's more of a discussion type deal. or just odds and ends, etc.

television without pity has a bunch of satirical reviews on the latest (or previous) episodes of most "primetime" tv shows. it's fun even if you don't watch tv. almost pure mockery. great for the anylitical thinker in us all.

i'm still here

start my second job on thursday. tried to cook dinner for some friends after the football game yesterday. all mixed up. i still have dishes to do from last week. $20 to last me 'til friday. $5/day. i'll be alright. one month to figure out a way into college. yes, for now i've put aside my dream to live in pittsburgh.

sountrack: tori amos, "I don't like mondays" + denison witmer's Philadelphia Songs

hello, from michigan to the world

i'm visiting some friends up in grand rapids. came up early evening yesterday. it's been pretty good for the most part. too good i guess. i mean i guess it really doesn't take much to cause me to doubt my lot in life, but well... I can't seem to get out of this ridiculous funk of social ineptitude and unmovitated living. i need to run away. i'm half-way there as it is.

now when i felt the familiar restless hatred begin to rise at the stupidity and ugliness of this sight, i bade myself look directly at some streaky rock cut and said to myself, thundered to myself, "Think!" - Annie Dillard

"How was it?" she asked, and then I remembered and began to understand how it was. It was wonderful, that's how it was. It was absolutely wonderful. - Annie Dillard

An American Childhood

sorry for the delay. been more than a little mental recently. or so it seems. everyone seems to just have left, or maybe that's just me.

I'm going to adjust the links soon. and start posting a bit more regularly (i think) starting tomorrow. for now i have more apologies to write before work.

It was a relief to turn from life to something important. - Annie Dillard

time travel is lonely

i realized, quite a while ago, that my calling my co-workers morons was a bit hypocritical. for that i apologize.

it feels like time is losing meaning. i don't really know what's all happened since i last posted. i'm getting re-settled in my apartment. had my up and down days. work isn't bad but it does take a lot of time out of the day.

i've been thinking that i want to live by the beach. on the beach is preferable, and not sound elitist but i really want to be far from civilization. not far from people, just boardwalks and crowds. maybe somewhere in england or scotland. anywhere would be great but i don't want to cut myself off completely, so i'd like to not have to face a language barrier. i suppose i'm not very ready to settle down. still would like just be able to travel around europe and elsewhere for at least a year.

it's so nice to dream.

you look like a perfect fit for a girl in need of a tourniquet